College life is great! Who knew I would like being on my own so much? :0) Well that isn't completely all true. I definately miss my mom. I've been sick twice since I moved in and have wanted my mom both times. Its hard not seeing her every morning and night. Thank goodness for cell phones! I love you mom!
As for my classes. I did not realize how light of a load 12 credit hours was until this first week of school. I love 2 of my classes, the other is alright, and one I hate. My Intimate Relationship & Marriage class is so much fun! ha ha I know it sounds a little crazy but my professor is so down to earth and funny she makes the class worth while. I also really like my Intro to Meteorology class. My professor is the meteorologist here on the main news channel in Columbia. Its weird to get up in the morning to find out what the weather is and see him talking to you.
Even in class if you close your eyes it sounds like your watching the weather channel. He just has that voice. Its funny. My math class is just like any other. I have a feeling it is going to get pretty tough at times but so far so good. As for my history class. I have lectures two times a week and then I go to discussion group once a week. I try so hard to listen during the lectures but I feel like he is speaking a foreign language. What he says just doesnt fit together. I feel like he is saying a whole bunch of random thoughts. I hope I get used to that. All of my classes but one are really big. Over 400. But ya know what? It really isnt too bad. If you sit somewhat towards the front and listen to the professor it doesnt seem much different than any other class. I like it. Its weird being able to text during a class or to watch a person walk out of class. I feel like it is so rude! Its a weird transition from high school to college. But so far so good! Ive met some pretty good friends. There is Tom and Shelby who are in two of my classes. They are pretty cool and I enjoy spending time with them. I hope I get the chance to know them more this semester so we can become closer friends. There is also a guy on the floor above me in my residence hall that is really cool. His name is Brandon. Every once in a while he'll come down to our room and just hang out. We'll all just get on our computers and talk. Its nice to have someone like that. Even when Em is gone I just climb one flight of stairs and go say hey.
Adam and I have been hanging out a little more than I thought we would be. Weird. I think a part of me feels bad for not being there when he was going through all that pain with his dad. I was a part of that family. Less than 2 years ago I would have considered him my dad and even now it hurts me to think about. I feel so fake saying that. Its hard to talk to him about how I miss his dad when I know how much he is hurting. None the less, we're friends and its nice to have him there. This weekend when everyone went home and the big Missouri vs. Illinois was on, Adam drove up to watch it with me. He is just so easy to talk to. Im not afraid to say anything to him. He has been the longest, truest friend Ive ever had. Emily is my best friend and Ive known her for a very long time but we havent really been best friends since 9th grade. Adam has been there since 7th grade. Its weird. Hes been there for me through the hardest and happiest of times so for us to be friends, it doesnt really seem that crazy. Another issue Im having a hard time dealing with is how old Larry (Adams dad) was when he passed away. Larry's dad (Adams grandpa) passed away when he was I think 58 and Larry was only 52. Where does that leave Adam? I know that is far from now but it still bothers me. I dont know what I would do without Adam. Im trying so hard not to let those feelings come back but its beginning to get harder. Tomorrow I think Im going to drive to Jeff City and visit with his mom. I haven't seem her since the fineral and I think its time to go say hi. I miss her and that house. I used to love driving to Jeff City. It was like a mini vacation. I loved waking up on Saturday morning smelling biscuits and sausage Cindy & Larry (Adam's parents) had made for breakfast. I felt like there was no care in the world. Sitting at the kitchen table, just the 4 of us. I just dont know what to think. I screwed up. I should have been there for Adam. I should have called his mom. I should have gone to visit sooner. Now its too late and I dont know what to do. Im glad Adam had other people that were there for him but it wasn't me. We were and still are so close I feel like it should have been my responsibility to be there. I dont know how he is coping with this. His dad. I cant even imagine losing my dad right now. I would be crushed. I certainly wouldnt be like Adam is now. But I guess that is just the kind of person he is. A wonderful person. A wonderful and thoughtful friend.
Well Im done rambling. I think this is by far the longest blog I have ever written. I really needed to let some things out. I even cried some this morning thinking about Larry and that is when I realized my online journal was going to get a visit today. Thanks to anyone who read this all the way through. I hope everyone had a good holiday weekend. I look forward to hearing from you. Love you all!
